Archive for June, 2008

the struggle week to foresee..

since i will be in great battle this beginning of the week, i had enuf of the rest and sleep i could ever have.

i got no saturday work, giving me more excuse to take all the sleep i’ve lost for the past week.

my BU Mgr will be on leave for 3 days, which means i will be left doing all the export things alone….struggling, the battlefield of workload and just the thought kills me, so help me God.

I was asking God for more strength, presence of mind and the ability to cope for 3 days.

i know i was able to do it last time when my boss was not around, but its totally different now that the workload is really more than a truckload and what my memory could ever bear to carry…exag ba? pero yun talaga ang reality.

i could imagine myself going home again soooo late….i admit to be guilty of not having been a good wife to my hubby just because of being too much busy with work…being too much pre occupied with work never permits me to have quality time with him, which i am starting to hate now.

if only i can resign and find another not so toxic job like this, i will…but of course, i want to build good image in the company…kumbaga utang na loob nga naman for them being so good to me, but the workload ang pinaka reklamo ko lang talaga.

ito ang conversation namin ng BU Mgr ko last Friday.

him : ” i will be on leave for 3 days, here are the files that i’m leaving to you (he was talking to me and my supervisor ”

moi : oh, i see, can you brief us what to do with those files.

him : easy but tricky and complicating

moi and sup : (looked at each other, with our eyebrows raised)….haay, die die

sup : don’t worry i will try to help you when i’m settled

moi : (at the back of my mind, i know she will really do support me, but she got her own workloads as well)

bu mgr : don’t worry i will try to do what i can do from my end

moi : die die _____

bu mgr : you need to learn and stand in your own feet, firm with your decisions as i can’t be always here all the time

moi : (parang paramdam na yun, bad trip di ba? ano yun mag re-resign ang lolo mo…omg!

Lord, how i wish i can have time to finish work on time this week, the only tolerable time to go back is 7pm so i can spend quality time with hubby.

i don’t want to ruin the relationship just because of being too workaholic…

if he only knew, that i wouldn’t want this situation i am facing now, but i was left with no options but to finish the work….

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…give me a break!!!

…grabbed this from Con’s blog…tama nga siya….give yourself a break by reading this diary…

super namatay ako sa hagalpak at naging anti-stressor from my tiring day at work…

Diary of Inday

It was jazz an ordinary day.
The skies were clear, the birds were
chipping. Ang ganda-ganda ng araw!
Nasa SM ako noon at katatapos ko lang
mamili ng groceries. Timing
naman nasa foodcore si Angel Locsin,
nagpro-provoke ng movie nya.
Grabe, andaming fans, pull-packed
talaga! Dahil fans nya rin ako,
nakipila rin ako.
Then suddenly, out of the loo, may
bumulong sa akin
ng: “Indaaaayyyy. …..”
Huh? It sounded like a familiar sound.
Who can it be now?
“Dodong!” sigaw ko.
Napalakas yata voice ko. Kasi the
other fans turned their backs to
their behind at napatingin sa amin.
Sabi ko “Sorry, I didn’t mean to
be loud and proud.” Hinawakan na lang
ni Dodong ang kamay ko at lumayo
kami from the crowd.
“Kamusta na Inday? Do you come here
open? tanong nya.
“Bihira lang, Dodong. I’m just
droppings by. Ethnic and schedule ko
eh” sabi ko.
Memories came flushing in my mind. How
can I forget to remember
Dodong? Siya na may mata ni Piolo,
dimple ni Aga, at bigote ni Rex
Cortez. he’s every woman’s dreamboat.
I was just starting my tour of
duty kay ate noon nang unang makilala
ko si Dodong. Contraction worker
siya sa ginagawang bahay sa tapat
namin. Naging kami for a while then
after that were not an item anymore.
“Tanghali na Inday. What did you say
we have lunch together?” tanong
ni Dodong. “I don’t mine” sagot ko.
Sa restaurant, nilapitan kaagad kami
ng waiter. “What’s your odor
sir?” sabi nung waiter kay Dodong.
“Do you have porkshop?” tanong ni
Dodong.
“Yes sir” sabi nito. “Our porkshop
with a resistance to the teeth of
boast of our chef. Domestic careful
selection of pork with little fat
of female liking is used. The
exquisite cooking which repeated trial
and error and was completed. it also
has healthy vegetables with salad
feeling fully” dagdag niya.
“And you mam?” sabay tingin naman sa
akin.
Hmmm… mukhang masarap yung porkshop.
Pero I’m cutting down on my
carbon kaya pinigilan ko.
“I’ll just have water, thanks.
Liquidate diet ako eh.” sagot ko.
Pagkatapos kumain, nagyaya si Dodong
manood ng sine. Teka teka, this
is going too far. Besides, it’s a
long, long way to run.
“Reality chess, Dodong. May asawa na
ako, si Jay. As a mother of fact,
I’m happily married” pagmamalaki ko.
“Di na pwede yung tulad ng dati. Sorry
pero I didn’t expect you still
have more feelings than I expected. i
don’t want you getting the way.
Past is fast. Therefore, cause and
defect.” dagdag ko pa.
Tumahimik sya. Parang may language
barrel na namagitan sa amin. The
seconds that passed seemed like
fraternity. Di nagla-on, nagsalita na
rin sya.
“I don’t care less!” sigaw ni Dodong.
Shocks, give me a brake! The nerd ng
taong ito para sigawan ako! To
think it’s his other woman that caused
our separation to part.
Kinabahan na ako. I felt speedbumps
all over my body and was having
panic attach. Tinalikuran ko siya at
nagmadali akong lumakad palayo.
Pero sumunod pa rin siya like a monkey
on my butt. Hanggang sa
makakita ako ng security guard.
Biglang nawala si Dodong.
“Excuse me kuya, pwedeng magtanong?”
sabi ko sa mamang guard.
“Of course miss, I can help you with
my pleasure.” sagot niya.
“Saan po ba ang exit? Could you point
me to the right erection? I got lost
in my eyes.”
“Diretso lang.” sabi niya. “Then turn
right anytime with care.”
“Thanks for your corporation” sabi ko.
Buti na lang nandun si kuya. Pero
saglit lang, I smell something
peachy. As I turned, nakita ko na
namang nakasunod si Dodong! Delaying
static lang pala kanina ang pag
disappear nya.
“Nyahahaha! You can run but you can
hide, Inday. No matter where you
go, there you are!” pananakot nya.
Oh no, is this the end? This is too
much, I feel degradable. My world
started falling afar.
Then suddenly, Jay come from behind!
Dodong was caught to the act! In
the matter of minute, it’s all over.
I’m out of arm’s way.
“Thanks Jay, my love. But how did
you?” bago pa man ako matapos, sabi
niya:
“I was in the neighborhood. Fans din
ako ni Angel eh. I heard you
shout but at first I didn’t give it a
thought. Pero nang makita ko
kayong magkahawak ng holding hands,
then i give it a thought. I know
something is a missed.”
From then on, Dodong did not brother
me again. In fact, he didn’t even
sister me. As in platonic at wala na
talaga.
Pero kami ni Jay, heto, shoot sailing
pa rin ang relationship. Lalo pa
ngayon, open na kami sa isa’t-isa at
walang exhibitions. i feel I’m on
cloud.

XOXO,
Inday

venting out mode

recently i’m having this tiring workweek of my life….syempre ilang rants na ito di ba, because i need to cover up for a work…pero i am still happy, though super stressed.

i sometimes end up na natatarayan ko mga tao sa paligid ko and that includes the sales people…nakikita na tunay na kulay ko…but i know, i have  a point na magtaray kasi i know nasa lugar ako.

keber ko ba if feeling nila eh, nagmamagaling ako….eh hindi kaya sila marunong sumunod sa SOP …law breaker din sila.

nasa reklamador mode ako lately kasi pati work quality ko affected dahil sa mga walang kwenta at walang keber na tao sa paligid ko…syempre ako babalikan ng clients sa kapalpakan nila dito…pwede ko bang pagtakpan always ang pagiging inefficient nila di ba?

hay naku buhay nga naman, minsan nag iisip ako mag resign because of this situation, pero alam ko wala pa to sa katiting ng hirap ko mula sa Pinas na 9na taon kong ginugol…

mas ok naman ako dito, yun nga lang mga service failures nila ako ang kailangan mag cover up…

sometimes nag fuck up at nawawalan ng sistema lahat….ikaw pa rin ang babalikan….shet talaga minsan ang buhay lalo na sa mga taong mahilig mangealam ng gusto nila para ma please ang clients, eh hindi naman workable.

ewan ko, if nagiging negative lang ako lagi, pero so far kasi talagang hindi posible ang gusto nila…may eepal pang pwede…dun ako inis….nangengealam ng diskarte, palpak naman…

ako kasi oo i will try, pero pag sinabi na malabo na mangyari bakit pa pilitin di ba…

hay naku venting out mode lang ito sa work….naiisip tuloy ng boss ko mareklamo ako….yung isa ngang natarayan ko eh, binawi sa akin ng boss ko yung file sa akin at siya na daw bahala.

di ba, eh kahit boss ko nainis nung sya nag take over eh…puro na lang pasa ng pasa ng trabaho…hindi na ma define ang hangganan.

inis ako sa mga taong abusado…hay….naku! buhay nga naman!

…to be able to sleep longer

i have always had this feeling waiting for the weekend, para makatulog ng mas mahaba…and with this words…nasapol ako ng BU Mgr ko…

our company shuttle usually have 3 batches, 6, 7 and 8pm.

so syempre, i was hoping i can catch the 7pm, pero since wala akong pasok ng saturday, i had to finish all my backlogs.

tapos when the second hand of the clock hits 8pm, my BU Mgr says, ” Yna lets go!, are you catching the last bus? or you need me to pass to you the cab card? ( kasi pag 9pm taxi na kami…company expense na)… then i replied “no don’t ever pass to me or else, i will be obliged to stay back late again!”

while taking the lift, 2 lang kasi kami….eto naging conversation.

Moi : finally its weekend again, will have longer hours to sleep.

Boss : yup, take some more naps and try not to be late for work

(putsa, mukhang na hit ko ang prompt button para masabihan ako nito, in fairness, late ako for the past 3weeks, siguro mga 2 araw lang ata hindi! bumabalik na naman yung katamaran kong bumangon ng maaga )….hmp, so syempre nag nod lang ako….tahimik mode ang lola nyo at eto lang nasabi ko.

Moi : ok

Boss : actually its ok for me, but i don’t want others to say that i’m bias, especially that you got new colleagues

syempre napahiya ako though mabait naman ang pagkakasabi nya…

Moi : yup i understand

Boss : its ok to be late but not frequently, its not a good example to your new colleagues…actually its just ok for me since you are staying back late. but i just don’t want them to say that i’m not being fair. so see you

Moi : ok….( nye tameme ang lola nyo)

tapos while waiting for uncle (bus driver) to open the shuttle, 8:05pm na at nainip na ako, sabi ko

Moi : uncle can please open the door

Boss : just be patient few more minutes and we’re about to go.

nakita tuloy ng boss ko ang pagiging mainipin ko…hay naku….anyway, natuto ako at sana magising ako ng maaga this week….

SATC fanatic…

i’m a self confessed fanatic of S.A.T.C.

my younger sistah is more than that of a fan for she has the CD Collection of the Series and while we were in the Philippines, we would do movie marathon together even watching it repeatedly…we still feel the same kilig and enjoyment in watching it.

syempre, i wouldn’t want to miss this chance of watching the movie.

it was worth every penny for it was nearly a 3hour movie….and i loved it….

it was all about friendship , relationship, family and most of all, L.O.V.E.  everyone who will watch it can relate to each character that the 4 ladies portrayed, having known them from the tv series made me love them even more after watching the movie.

Among the things I love was seeing their lives in New York and Manhattan…the big closet, the penthouse, the diamond ring in auction, gucci and louis vuitton bags…and seeing mexico!

Here’s a shot of each of the characters portrayed

Carrie Bradshaw (Sarah Jessica Parker) – my fave character,  charming petite columnist…. ….has her  weekly column,  the girlfriend of Big or John…in this movie, i loved every bit of the scenes wherein they feature the wedding plans of her and Mr. Big, syempre, i love weddings….that’s why i watched this movie as well.

Samantha Jones (Kim Cattrall) – The blonde actress who plays a big role in the movie, a man-eater and can easily go and have sex with anyone she meets…..without her, there won’t be “the life and lust” that the movie can entail. she’s the biatch and MILF …

Charlotte York (Kristin Davis) – The old fashioned rich lady with high morale, trying to blend with the other ladies,  more than a family-oriented type but can really crack and make the scenes, especially shitting on her own undies. you will feel the love in her role especially that she had Baby Rose in this movie.

Miranda Hobbes (Cynthia Nixon) – The cynical lawyer. The one who has lesser sex in her life even if she got her hubby and kiddo…and broke up with her hubby bec he slept with another girl.

The words I wouldn’t forget…( Mr. Big’s vow to Carie!)

Ever mine,

Ever yours,

Ever ours!